I recently started reading this blog and this post in particular really grabbed me. It's about recovering from addiction, and the first paragraph reads, "I think that life done right is one long recovery process. We’re all recovering from something."
This week I'm recovering from not getting travel dates on the day I fully expected them to come. My dossier has been submitted since the end of August, and things in the region are progressing. The day I was expecting travel dates {a certain day in a particular week of the month is when they usually come} is a poignant day for me and my family--an anniversary of sorts--and I got my hopes high that I would hear something that day. The day came and went with no news.
It sounds ridiculous to say I was devastated, when my rational mind knows I can likely expect travel dates at SOME point in the not-too-distant future. But when there's no news, fear creeps in. I've already had to re-do some documents, and I worry about having to re-do the others because of the amount of time and the cost involved in paperchasing. Things appear to be getting tougher in this region and I worry about that. Adopting as a single sets me up {understandably} for more scrutiny.
The part that really struck me in the blog post linked above was this: "Alternate two prayers – 'Help' and 'Thank you.'"
Without really thinking about it, that's exactly what I've been doing. The commentary in my head sounds something like this: Thank you for both my jobs and the money they provide. Help all the money to be there when needed. Thank you for the people who have donated to the adoption fund. Help the process to go as it's meant to go. Thank you for the amazing emotional support from friends and family. Help me to be patient.
Thank you for setting me on this path. Help me to complete it.
